Killing is not the reason y i want to join the CF, that maybe the last reason y i want to join....
It's disturbing that killing is even a reason why you'd want to join, last reason or not. Maybe do some research about what a Canadian soldiers job is really like. No one can say for sure what is going to happen on any given tour overseas, but it's probably not going to be like Platoon, Full Metal Jacket, or even Blackhawk Down. We're not at war. We may not go to war anytime soon, and theres a good chance you could go through your whole career without ever returning fire at a single enemy.
The fact that you're quoting the character Barnes from Platoon is troubling too. His character is hell bent on making sure that he dies in combat, because killing has made him feel so lost that he knows he couldn't handle ever going home. Thats why you see him marching around during incoming rocket and mortar fire, in the scene before he murders Elias, thats why he tells Charlie Sheen to kill him at the end. He's meant as a symbol of how War and killing can destroy a man. He's not meant to be a role model for young boys who dream of glory on the battlefield.
Maybe you noticed that Charlie Sheen's character Chris sat down with a grenade after the act, and was going to kill himself with it, but was interrupted by the soldiers arriving on the scene. He was a volunteer, who wanted "infantry, combat, and Vietnam", he thought he wanted to kill people too. Keep in mind the movie was created by someone who's actual experience was very similar to the main characters.
There's a lot being said in that movie thats worth paying attention to, but none of it is meant to glorify war or killing.
Anyway, I think maybe you're getting the point that people are going to come down on you if you start talking about killing, war movies, and just generally talking out of your ...
So I'll answer your original question to help give you some perspective about the recruiting process.
It's taken me over three years to get my offer. I've had a lost file, allergy testing issues, a broken leg that put off my application for a year, transfer of CFRC's that was a huge hassle, poorly timed medical expiry's that required really lengthy waits for clearance from Borden, and other lesser snags such as requiring giving weeks long notice to my employer for repeat testing bookings.
It can take a really long time for some people, but if you really want to get in then it shouldn't really be a problem, you either know in your heart that you will do whatever it takes, jump through whatever hoops they ask you to, and wait for as long as you have to to get in, or you know that it's not that important to you, and one way or another the recruiting process will weed you out.
If it's really something you want, then I'd recommend just sitting back and doing a lot of reading while you're here, and putting your energy into doing whatever it takes to get into the CAF, and not into arguing with people who in a lot of cases have already been there.
I had a few PM's when I first started posting here that are probably similar to yours, and I took the advice that I received and put it to use.
It's something that you're going to have to do when you get into the military anyway, because arguing with or questioning, or talking back to your instructors when you get to BMQ will get you into a whole world of trouble. I know that not because I've been there, but because I've paid attention to posts from people who have.
I'm sure everyone here would love to see your attitude change, and for you to get in and have a rewarding career as a valuable, contributing, team playing member of the CAF. That's why people come in to read and post in the recruiting section, to give us all who are genuinely interested in doing what they do, a helping hand.
Try not to let it get to you that you feel under attack, just think about why it feels that way, and use this as a lesson about having a thick skin when you get to BMQ.
Good luck, on your application. You can see it through if you want it bad enough.
